Thursday, October 28, 2010

I guess.
in that race.
I will never win.

I really want to withdraw from it.
its not easy.
trying hard not to give up.
trying hard to hang in there all da way
but i know.
at da end of da day
i will still lose.

i tried.


it aint dripping..
theres a pool..

<3JIN

If I were to say Im not hurting, I would be lying.
If I were to say I dont care, I would also be lying.

<3JIN

Saturday, October 23, 2010

everything underground.
what for front stage?

<3JIN

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Im acting this way.. and doing all this is because I care.

<3JIN

Monday, October 18, 2010

Lately, I have not been sleeping well at night!
One side of my shoulder will hurt so badly that it numbs up within seconds. And so i will toss and turn on da bed. After getting a more comfortable spot, my arm will numb up. Geez.


Im so sorry.. If only I could do something about it.
I am still trying to find ways and means.
Give me time.
But really.
Sometimes, look further. Look at da bigger picture.
Right now, we are all too caught up looking at da small picture which is short term and temporary.
How else can I help you to see?
Im sorry.

If I can do anything to make you feel better, I will definitely will!

<3JIN

Saturday, October 16, 2010

As I go way back into my history and memories..
I realise that I really miss those days..
I really miss those people..
I really miss everything about last time..
Of course, we have to move on.. look forward no matter what because we cannot turn back time..

But as we all grow older..
And we all go our separate ways and all..
Once in awhile, communicating with them.. The memories just come flooding back again..
& oh.. How i really miss them!

<3JIN

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

As I looked back, certain things just keep on haunting me.
Certain things keep on reminding me that its not over yet.
Certain things keep on telling me to press on for something great awaits me.

As I keep on looking, searching for some answer,
reading deeper into things,
thinking and podering over LOTS of things..
I just realise...

Not only now.
But since quite long ago..
Since that very day..
When all backs were turned against her..
That was when I knew.. I had to stand up for her..
Things might become like last time again.
I dont want it to repeat again..
Its not going to be easy.
So much that i can do..
While da decisions lie in others hands..
What i can do now..
is to...

I will do it..
All for her!

<3JIN

Saturday, October 02, 2010

Its sad to see how friendships are seen in terms of price value!
The higher your price value, the better friend you are!
The lower your price value, the next moment you will go "Do I know you?"

So what happen to all those true friends that we always complain about not having?
What happened to all those friends who were always at your side when you needed them?
What happened to all those friends who cheered you up when you were sad?
What happened to all those friends who would do things willingly for you?
What happened to all those friends who preotected you?
I dont believe that they have disappeared!
Because I believe that there are still nice people around us.
Only that we do not open up our eyes.
Only that we choose not to see.
Only that we do NOT appreciate them!
Isn't it sad?

And its all because of $.
all because of being too materialistic.!

<3JIN